Tuesday, April 28, 2009

I'm In It


My IVF calendar officially started on Sunday. Not much has changed. Of course I haven't actually done anything except continue to take my birth control pills. On Monday I stopped doing a lot of things, stopped drinking alcohol, stopped drinking caffeine.

I've officially left the BFA. I've been there since March 2, two months floating around, unsure of my next steps. The picture of my future baby in my mind's eye getting fainter and fuzzier each day. There's nothing like starting an IVF cycle to snap that picture back into full focus.

For the next six weeks (I hope) my life will be lived in blocks of time. Today is not Tuesday, it is nine days until lupron. Tomorrow isn't Wednesday, it is sixteen days until baseline ultrasound. Of course as a two time IVF cancelled loser it seems decadent to think much beyond that baseline ultrasound.

Theoretically if I stack enough of these time blocks together I will end up with a baby. Of course I know better than that, but looking at the calendar on paper it seems too simple NOT to work. (But then what could be simpler than insert tab A into slot B and that didn't work.)

19 comments:

womb for improvement said...

It is so easy on paper isn't it. Best luck with this shot, for real.

Peaches said...

Yeah, those little blocks of paper fail to convey allll that goes into each daily square!!! Wishing you the absolute best on this cycle, and yeah for being out of the BFA and joining us in the BFW..(Waiting!!)
((hugs))

strongblonde said...

i ended up redoing my schedule so i could fit everything on it and make it more encompassing :)

yea for the official start of the cycle!

Jennifer said...

YEA for the official start of the cycle!!! Great to hear :)

M said...

so glad you've left bfa. (great term by the way, totally get it) fingers crossed this is the cycle that goes all the way!

Caroline said...

I'm so glad that this cycle is underway. I'm thinking of you.

humbird97 said...

Good luck. My FET was a BFN. I'm back in the BFA....

All the best to you.

UnicornMommy said...

I am thinking about you. Hope everything works out.

keeping you out of the BFA. That isn't a nice place. I have a place there. but I am currently renting it out.

mekate said...

I love having a plan. I really do-- glad you have it down and are out of the abyss and on the journey. May this cycle bring you every success.

My verification word? FLUCKIN
to which I respond: A

Frau said...

Those little count downs to each new step are the ladder out of the BFA. I have never been so happy to start sticking needles in myself.

*TTC*Chick* said...

Link to my blog! ttcconnections.blogspot.com!

Babydust!

'Murgdan' said...

So glad you're getting started...and my fingers are painfully crossed that there will be NO cancellation this time. I hope you have even more days to count down to after baseline.

Kristin said...

good luck with the countdown!

princessoftides said...

One step at a time - and I'm pulling for each one!! Good luck!

Erica said...

Having that plan and focusing on it is so important for keeping sanity. I'm psyched you're starting again and that you quit all the "bad" drinks. It sucks, but there isn't much us IFs wouldn't do to get a baby at the end of this.

Sending you a hug and lots of luck!

Valerie said...

Discovered your blog via another.

I am an IVF success story with lots of pregnancy "mishaps" along the way.

I am off to spend some time with dear husband, but will be back to lurk around and follow your story.

Perhaps, my good luck will rub off on you! I am sending lots of babydust and prayers your way!!!

Blessings to you from Kansas,
Valerie

musicmakermomma said...

Yay for getting officially started! Hope this time you go all the way. Sending hope and hugs.

Misty said...

Those ovaries are going to be cyst free this time, I just know it. No returning to to BFA, EVER, for you!

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