I generally don’t remember my dreams, but I had a strange one this morning. I dreamt that I had a baby girl rather unexpectedly. I knew I wasn’t expecting to have a baby because my desk was a mess at work. My desk is usually a mess at work, but I’m hoping I’ll clean it off before maternity leave, if I ever get to go on maternity leave. Also we had NO baby stuff in the house. So I sent my husband to Target to buy some baby stuff. Of course he came back with all the wrong stuff and I didn’t even have a place for the baby to sleep. Hubby told me to put her down to sleep in some blankets, but I told him that didn’t seem such a good idea as she would probably suffocate.
The strange thing about this baby is that even though she was newly born she seemed about the size of a one year old. Also, in my dream I was constantly changing the baby’s diaper and it was always poopy, really messy poopy. I just kept wiping this baby’s bottom, but I couldn’t get it clean. The really weird thing was that the baby seemed to have a lot of attitude about me changing these poopy diapers. Like she was saying, “Yeah lady…you clean up that poop. I’m going to poop more in a minute and it will be even messier.”
So does my subconscious feel unprepared for motherhood? Or am I subconsciously concerned that motherhood won’t be all I think it will be? Do I have a poop fetish? Am I concerned about having a baby with attitude? What do you think?