Saturday, September 26, 2009

Tested

Negative.

Hope got me again. I really thought things would be different this time.

I guess the only thing I can hope for now is divine intervention.

51 comments:

Illanare said...

I'm so sorry. This whole IF thing is just so wearingly, gut-wrenchingly horrible. My heart goes out to you.

JB said...

So, so, so stinking sorry.

Mad Hatter said...

I'm so very sorry, Megan. Was this an HPT? Is there a chance it's still early? ((((Hugs))))

Mad Hatter said...

I just double-checked your last post and I see that you have your beta on Monday. So today is 8dpt13dpo, yes? I am hoping with all I've got that it's just too early for an HPT to detect anything and that you get the right result on Monday. XOXO

Unknown said...

Fuck.

I was hoping to see news of a BFFP. It's not over yet though, might still be too early. Not over til you get your blood results on Monday.

I'm still holding my breath for you.

xxxxx

Anonymous said...

Words won't help, but I hope a virtual hug does...***Hugs***

Shannon said...

UGH....sucks sucks SUCKS! I was hoping for a huge BFP for you! IF sucks balls!

Anonymous said...

Shit. Shit shit shit. I'm so sorry. Nothing about this is ok. SHIT!

lovemyabbie@gmail.com said...

well crap!!!!! that's all I've got. fingers and toes still crossed thoughts and prayers

irrationalexuberance said...

Damn. That sucks, and nothing we can say will make it un-suck. Just know that a whole lot of us are pulling for you.

Mrs.X said...

Damn, damn, damn.

Do what you need to do to process this and feel better about it. It's a terrible dance that you are in right now - balancing those little shreds of hope left and trying to begin the process of moving on. Above all, let yourself grieve.

Many, many hugs.

lcams08 said...

Don't give up hope yet! It is still early.

Kate said...

I'm so so so sorry. This just sucks. But let's hope that divine intervention comes Monday, and it is a little too early to test. Hang in and just do what you need to do.

Sally said...

GRRRR... infertility just f'ing blows! Try to hang on until Monday - I've read many blogs where crazier things have happened. Just remember - you are not alone.. ever! (hugs)

aimeemax said...

I'm still hoping for a positive on Monday - you never know.

(((hugs)))

Mo said...

No! NO!! This is just wrong. Wrong in every single way. I am so, so sorry. I know how devastating a negative can be, and how awful it feels to have so much hope only to have it ripped away again.

Mo

none said...

Some embies just get a late start. I'll keep hoping you get a ++ on Monday.

RELH said...

grrrrr

Life Happens said...

I am so sorry for your BFN. Don't lose hope though. I will continue to say prayers for you.

Anonymous said...

So sorry you are once again in this terrible place. Thinking of you, praying for a miracle...

Kate said...

Damn that sucks. I was hoping for better news for you.
Nothing in this journey is easy. Will I be suppressed/no cysts? Will I stim well? Will they get enough? Will they grow? Will they implant? Will we see a heartbeat? Will it make it past the first trimester? Will I make it to viability? Will I take a baby home?
Thinking of you.

ASP said...

I hope you get better results on Monday. All of this crap we have to go through is just so unfair. Know that you're not alone. Hugs.

A

Kate said...

I am all about hope
and divine intervention.
hoping beyond hope for you

xo
kate

BB said...

So sorry! {HUGS}

Tiger said...

There is still hope it is to early for a HPT.

Melissa G said...

Oh Megan, my heart is broken for you...

hope4joy said...

Shit. My heart aches for you. I am so sorry.

Nicole said...

Oh man...this sucks. If only words could actually say what I wanted them too.

hugs,
nicole

Mary said...

There isn't anything I can say. I'm so sorry.

Erica said...

Megan,

My heart is totally broken for you and Tony right now. Life is just so unfair. I am so very sorry. You are both in my thoughts and I will be waiting with a heavy heart until you cross this fucking finish line.

Erica

Paula Keller said...

Well, crap.

I'm so sorry.

Why can't this be like other things in life, where if you just pour all of your heart and energy into something, you get rewarded in return.

So unfair.

Kristen's Raw said...

My heart goes out to you... so sorry.

Shinejil said...

Fuck. That completely sucks.

Xillary said...

I hate seeing your hope-o-meter go from 5 to 0. I still have hope for you and your embies. Hang in there a little bit longer!

the misfit said...

I'm in denial for you. I'm sure you're sure it wasn't too early to test? I'm so, so sorry.

Bluebird said...

My heart hurts for you. I'm so, so sorry.

Kathryn said...

Oh. I am so sorry. I have never posted, but have been following along for awhile...my heart sunk at this news.

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry about the negative. I

I'm going to keep praying for you that it was possibly just a late implantation and that you'll get some good news on Monday.

Thinking about you...

Kore said...

I'm sorry.

Jem said...

I'm hoping it's too early for the POAS test and that Monday will bring much happier news.

In any case, be good to yourself.

Jem

Liz said...

Shit.

Sorry.

IF Optimist, then... said...

I saw your post and read and my heart sank. I'm so sorry for you and your husband. I said a little prayer that you may get some good news from your beta. Take good and gentle care of yourself in the meantime -- get lots of extra love and hugs. Take Monday off if you can.

Frau said...

On the cycle I got pregnant, I probably would have gotten a negative if I had tested early. I know that's not comforting since it was short lived. But it really was the genetics, not the hormones that stopped that pregnancy.

I'm hoping that things work out.

Michelle said...

OH Hun, I am just so sorry! ((HUGS))

ASP said...

Thinking of you.

Baby Smiling In Back Seat said...

Aargh, so sorry.

Once Upon A Time said...

I am so very sorry.

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry. I too, was hoping things would be different for you this time. ((Hugs))

UnicornMommy said...

man, cant you catch a break...

Fuck.

ryanandjoesmom said...

Oh Megan - I was so praying that this would be the ONE! Crap - I am so sorry.

Jendeis said...

I'm so sorry. This is such bullcrap.

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