16 days past "ovulation".
My day that started like this...
I have had some headaches, some backaches, some cramps, but no sore boobs and I have been feeling more energetic than ever lately. I debated about testing...I even debated this morning while my bladder felt like it was going to explode.
But I haven't had my period and last night on our walk through the neighborhood I needed to take the shortcut because I was so tired and then I almost fell asleep on the sofa. I had an old Clearblue Easy Digital test in the linen closet...what the hell.
I woke my husband, showed him the positive test, started crying, and begged him to go buy more tests. While he was gone I drank a glass of water. I could barely pee on the First Response test when he returned. It was clearly negative. If I tilted the test in the light and crossed my eyes I could almost convince myself that there was a very faint line, but realistically it was negative.
I went to work and started Googling. I've learned that lots of people have had false positives with Clearblue Easy Digital Pregnancy Tests. I alternated between telling myself that I wasn't pregnant and telling myself that I was pregnant because surely the universe would not fuck with my mind like this...
I took the newly purchased Clearblue Easy Digital Test I brought with me to work in my purse and got this...
I take more pregnancy tests before 9 am than most people take all day. I'm disappointed. I'm numb. I'm angry. I'm upset.
I feel like the mean popular girl at school asked me to sit with her at lunch today and then started a nasty rumor about me.
Welcome to my pity party. I'm experiencing a serious case of "why me?" this morning.