Saturday, July 18, 2009

Beating a Dead Horse

Two more pregnancy tests. One with first morning urine, both negative.

The pity party rages on!

I think I cried more yesterday over this positive pregnancy test than I did over my cancelled IVF transfer.

For an hour yesterday I thought this nightmare was all over.

A person's mind can do a lot of planning in an hour.

Tony and I are going for a picnic today followed by a long hike. I'm going to find my center again in nature.

18 comments:

hope4joy said...

That is crap. I am so sorry. I hope your day gets better.

Betty Rubble said...

Rage...rage...rage on we understand.

Enjoy your commune with nature...I hope it helps, even if its a bit...

IVF 40+ said...

so very sorry.

Shinejil said...

Shit. I was still Pollyannishly holding out hope...

Have a great picnic and I hope nature does its healing best.

the misfit said...

I was really hoping this was it. I'm so, so sorry.

musicmakermomma said...

This is just as bad as beta hell. I'm so sorry.

Lorza said...

Damn. I am sorry girl.

Kate said...

I can't count how many times I've been kicked in the teeth after some faint ghost line on a pg test, or trying out the old OPK-as-HPT and seeing the lines get darker and darker from 8dpo on, only to test negative on the HPT in the end.
This just sucks! So sorry.

Michelle said...

That just sucks! I know exactly how that feels to get a positive and then have it yanked away. I am so sorry!

IF Optimist, then... said...

So very sad and sorry for you today. I hope you have a lovely picnic with your wonderful husband.

areyoukiddingme said...

I'm sorry. That sucks. I bumped up the hope-o-meter, and now it slowly sinks back down.

I hope your day got much much much better.

Pundelina said...

That's totally shite for you. I'm so sorry that you got that awful bit of hope yesterday now that it was dashed today.

Grrrr at stupid fake-o HPTs.

humbird97 said...

Yucky. Just darn yucky.

I know my mind can plan a lot in an hour. I know why you cried so much.

Today I turned 35. Yup, some tears there.

To better times...

mekate said...

fuck fuck fuck fuck
fuck fuck fuck

truly
madly
deeply

darn it.

I am so sorry- I was kinda hoping that you could catch a miracle here,


warm wishes to you
and gosh darn
Kate

eyeheartinternet said...

): so sorry...

Mad Hatter said...

I'm sorry you're having such a rotten rollercoaster ride. Know that our hearts are all sinking along with yours, and still holding on to a little hope that those negatives are false. XO

womb for improvement said...

Dammit.

Hope is a terrible thing, especially when even for a few moment it is colluding with science.

I'm sorry.

barrenisthenewblack said...

WTF, ClearBlueFuckers?
I'm so sorry. Thinking of you

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