Sunday, December 13, 2009

THE SCREAMING POST

I DON'T EVEN CARE THAT I CAN'T GET PREGNANT THE OLD FASHIONED WAY ANYMORE!!! WHY COULDN'T I HAVE BEEN ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE THAT GOT PREGNANT WITH ONE IVF?!?!?!

MY COUSIN WHO ALWAYS SAID SHE DIDN'T WANT TO HAVE KIDS AND EVEN TOLD US ALL THAT AT HER WEDDING IS DUE IN A FEW MONTHS. WHAT THE FUCK IS UP WITH THAT?!????!?!?!

WHAT THE HELL DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS? WHY ME WHY ME WHY ME???

THIS IS SO FUCKING UNFAIR ALL THE TIME AND AT EVERY TURN. CAN'T I EVER GET A FUCKING BREAK???

I AM SO SICK OF PEOPLE AT WORK GETTING PREGNANT AND FRAMING THEIR GOD DAMNED ULTRASOUND PICTURES AND PUTTING THEM ON THEIR DESKS.

ok. feel a bit better now. feel free to add your own screams to the comments.

38 comments:

sprogblogger said...

I TOTALLY AGREE!
god this sucks.

Bon said...

Fuck this fucking shiiiiiiiiiiitttt!!!!!!!!

IVF 40+ said...

WE'VE HAD ENOUGH AND WE"RE JUST NOT GOING TO TAKE IT ANYMORE...

by the way - the photo's of puppy ... freakin' adorable.


Eb

Melissa G said...

WHY THE FUCK HAVEN'T MY dIUI'S WORKED?!?!?!?!?! WE WENT THROUGH SO MUCH HELL DECIDING TO USE DONOR, AND WERE TOLD OUR ODDS WOULD BE GREAT BECAUSE ALL MY TESTS CAME BACK CLEAR!!! WTF?!?! AND I HATE THAT I HAVE BEEN MARRIED LONGER THAN ALL OF MY FRIENDS AND THEY'RE ALL PREGNANT (AGAIN) OR ALREADY HAVE KIDS!!! MY RE SUCKS ASS!!!! WHY DID I STAY WITH HIM SO LONG?!?! WHY DIDN'T I QUESTION HIS METHODS SOONER?!?! MY INSURANCE SUCKS TOO!!!! FUCK ALL THOSE BASTARDS AT ANTHEM BLUE CROSS!!!! FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thanks Megan, I feel SO much better. Sorry you're frustrated too.

Hugs.

Amber said...

WHY IN THE HELL WOULD YOU SEND PICTURES OF YOUR STUPID PREGNANT BELLY OR YOUR DUMB LITTLE BABIES SITTING BY THE CHRISTMAS TREE TO YOUR INFERTILE FRIEND??? PLEASE JUST LEAVE ME OFF YOUR MAILING LIST!!! I GET IT ALREADY- YOU CAN HAVE KIDS AND I CAN'T. POINT MADE. NOW SHOVE YOUR CARDS UP YOUR FERTILE VAGAGAYS.

Leslee said...

I feel your pain. After 4 & 1/2 yrs of this crap...I'm sick of it.

tishi said...

IM SO #$%$&*$% TIRED OF GOING TO HOLIDAY PARTIES AND STANDING THERE LIKE A LUMP WHILE ALL THE OTHER LADIES TALK ABOUT HOW WONDERFUL THEIR BABIES ARE!!!

tishi said...

oh, that felt nice!

Lookingforaplussign said...

yell it loud and proud, girl. I hear ya!

lastchanceivf said...

HOW CAN IT BE ANOTHER F'ING CHRISTMAS AND WE'RE STILL HANGING TWO STOCKINGS??? HOW COULD WE HAVE DONE FIVE IN VITRO CYCLES AND STILL SIT EMPTY HANDED...WHAT IS THIS BULLSHIT ABOUT 1 IN 6 COUPLES AFFECTED...NOT IN MY CIRCLES! I'M THE ONLY ONE, SAVE FOR MY INTERNET BUDDIES!!!! I'M SO SICK SICK SICK SICK SICK SICK SICK OF TRYING TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO PAY FOR THINGS, WHAT OUR NEXT STEPS SHOULD BE, WHAT WE DID WRONG...WE'RE JUST F'ING EXHAUSTED. PLAIN AND SIMPLE.

Thanks for the permission to yell.

Melis.sa said...

why the fuck do i have to have 2 miscarriages and lose a friend in less than a year? why? why? can't god space that shit out among ten years? somethin?

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>.

waiting and wishing said...

I just recently found your blog and I LOVE IT! Although I haven't been waitingas long as you, or gone through the treatments you have (yet..) I am totally with you! My best friend from high school just got pregnant on her first round of Clomid (after trying "FOREVER"...like 4 months) Seriously? Shoot me now. I can't take it.

Mad Hatter said...

YEAH! FUCK YOU INFERTILITY!!! FUCK YOU BLINK N' BREEDERS! AND FUCK YOU TO ALL THOSE RE'S WHO HAVE GOTTEN RICH OFF US AND ARE DRIVING AROUND IN BMWS PURCHASED WITH OUR DREAMS OF HAVING FAMILIES!!!

Yep, that was good. Thanks, Megan.

jenicini said...

Yep.

Bean stalk ballads said...

Love it!!
AND BY THE WAY STOP SHOWING PREGNANT BELLY PHOTOS ON FACEBOOK YOU BASTARDS.

AHHHHHH

Sarah said...

Seriously.
FUCK FUCKING INFERTILITY!
FUCK THE ASSHOLES THAT FLAUNT THEIR FERTILE BULLSHIT IN OUR FACES!
FUCK PEOPLE WHO SHOULDNT EVEN BE ALLOWED TO HAVE KIDS, GETTING PREGNANT IF SOMEONE SNEEZES TO CLOSE TO THEM.
AND LASTLY, FUCK THE DUGGARS....YEA, I'M THAT BITER.

[cre] said...

!!!!!!!!!!!
I really enjoyed this post ...

SassyIfLady said...

IF FUCKING SUCKS!
I HATE IT!

ARGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I HATE FEELING SO BROKEN AND HORRIBLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Kate said...

Just what I needed this morning! WHY? WHY? WHY?

Brandy said...

FUCK IT ALL! SCREW CHRISTMAS WITH FAMILY THAT DOESN'T UNDERSTAND!

Thanks, that was refreshing!

www.brandysheaif.blogspot.com

JB said...

I DON'T WANT ANY MORE DRUGS OR PROCEDURES OR CONSULTATIONS -- FUCK ALL OF THAT, I ONLY EVER WANTED A BABY.

EWebey said...

it does suck. It sucks to take a day of vacation because that is the only way you can "diplomatically" not go to the baby shower for someone else in the department.


Hope your day gets better :D

Jem said...

Wow, you summed it up perfectly.

FUCKity, Fuckin' unfair.

MelissaP05 said...

WTF? SO I GET A F-ING POSITIVE DIGITAL PREGNANCY TEST AND THEN IT GOES NEGATIVE. AS IF I DON'T ALREADY HAVE ENOUGH STRESS TO DEAL WITH. I WANTED TO ENJOY THIS AND SAVOR EVERY MOMENT OF SEEING THE WORD "PREGNANT" ON A STUPID PEE STICK. STUPID ME, IT WILL NEVER BE THAT EASY. I WILL NEVER GET TO ENJOY IT. AAAAAHHHHHH.

Thank you for allowing me to vent. I needed that!

TeeJay said...

I TOTALLY AGREE!! WHY DO THEY ALL HAVE TO PUT THEIR SONO PICS UP ON FACEBOOK?? HAS THE WORLD COMPLETELY RUN OUT OF COMPASSION? WHY ME? WHY US? WHY DOES IT HAVE TO COST SO MUCH...IN DOLLARS, IN SANITY, IN EMOTIONS, IN HOPE, IN OUR RELATIONSHIPS??? IT ALL SUCKS ASS AND WE ARE SICK OF IT...I'M PUKING RIGHT NOW!

womb for improvement said...

AND THE PREGNANCY ANNOUNCEMENT I GOT TODAY. SHE HADN'T EVEN MET HER HUSBAND WHEN WE STARTED TRYING.

IT IS NOT BLOODY FAIR. NONE OF THIS IS.

Kacy said...

FUCKING DITTO

Michelle said...

FUCKING RIGHT ON SISTER!!!! I COULD NOT AGREE MORE!!! I AM SICK OF THIS SHIT~!!!

finch said...

It's like reading my own personal internal dialogue earlier this week. Ditto to many of the comments too!

IF Optimist, then... said...

WHAT DO YOU MEAN THAT AFTER 5 YEARS 3IUI AND 2 IVFS THAT I FINALLY GET LUCKY AND THEN HAVE PREVIA!!!! WHY CAN'T I CATCH A BREAK!?! OH YEAH AND TODAY I FIND OUT THAT I HAVE MOTHERFUCKING MFTHR BLOOD CLOTTING DISORDER SO YEAH THESE BABIES CAN JUST UP AND DIE AT ANY MOMENT DUE TO MY FUCKED UP DNA? OH, DON'T FORGET MY FUCKED UP UTERUS. SO GUESS WHAT BITCH? ENJOY YOUR PREGNANCY IN MIND-NUMBING FEAR EACH AND EVERY DAY.

FFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUCCCCCCKKKKK!!!!

Holy crap, I just posted ultrasound pics on my last blog post. What a smug bitch I am. Sorry honey--don't look. Mkay?

Mad Hatter said...

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(just had to come back and scream some more...better now, thanks)

twondra said...

I'm so sorry sweetie. I'm thinking of you!! (((HUGS)))

LaurenKauf said...

HA!!! I LOVE THIS!!! FUCK YOU INFERTILITY, FUCK YOU DEFECTIVE SPERM, FUCK YOU POLYPS IN MY VAGINA!!!!FUCK OFF PEOPLE THAT THINK THAT TRYING FOR 3 MONTHS IS A LONG TIME!

Thank you for this!!! I needed it!!!

LaurenKauf said...

I would just also like to point out that I LOVE everyone's responses!! "F- the Duggars!" "F- the blink a breeders" hahaha

Where's My Stork? said...

Man the F bombs are flying around this place like crazy!!

Let me try this too:
FUCK THIS HORSESHIT THAT GOOD HONEST CARING PEOPLE HAVE TO GO THROUGH. ITS NOT FAIR THAT SCUMBAG DRUGGY PEOPLE CAN HAVE 20 KIDS AND I CAN'T. FUCK THAT I AM THE LAST ONE IN MY CIRCLE OF FRIENDS TO GET PREGNANT AND NOW I HAVE TO AVOID HANGING OUT WITH THEM TO SPARE MY OWN FEELINGS. I HATE IF. IT CAN GO TO HELL!!

wow.....that does make me feel better. Great post.

Andie said...

Thanks for letting everyone vent.

I am so fucking sick of infertility and RPL. It is so unfair that all of us have experienced IF. It sucks.

Bobi said...

To all the people who get pregnant on accident and then ask my husband and i for money.

IF YOU DIDNT HAVE A JOB AND KNEW HIM FOR A MONTH WHY THE HELL DID YOU TRY FOR A BABY? HE MADE $300 A WEEK AND YOU MADE NOTHING, YET YOU TRIED, FING TRIED TO GET PREGNANT? AND THEN AFTER BABY NUMBER ONE YOU SAID BIRTH CONTROL WAS TOO EXPENSIVE, YOUD JUST USE THE PULLING OUT METHOD. WELL HAPPY FREAKIN DAY, NOW YOU HAVE 2 AND CANT EVEN AFFORD A PAIR OF SHOES FOR EITHER ONE!

AND FOR YOU MISS "ILL GET PREGNANT AT 17 SO MY BOYFRIEND WILL MARRY ME AND NOT LEAVE ME FOR SOME GIRL AT COLLEGE" EVERYONE KNEW WHAT YOU WERE DOING, W WARNED HIM. HE SAID "SHE WOULD NEVER DO THAT" WELL YOU DID, AND GOT PREGNANT 1 MONTH AFTER YOU STARTED FLUSHING THE BIRTH CONTROL DOWN THE TOILET. NOW YOU DRINK AND PARTY EVERY FREAKING NIGHT. YOU TREAT YOUR HUSBAND LIKE SHIT AND CALL HIM HORRIBLE NAMES IN FRONT OF HIS FRIENDS AND YOURS.

AND FOR OTH OF YOU
SPANKING YOUR KID WHEN THEY DO THE TINIEST THING, LIKE BEING 18 MONTHS OLD AND PICKING THEIR NOSE, IS NOT GOOD PARENTING. IVE SEEN YOU EACH SPANK YOUR KID OVER 5 TIMES IN 12 HOURS. BY THE AGE OF 5 THE KID WONT EVEN CARE ABOUT SPANKING AND WILL BE ABLE TO DO ANYTHING, BECAUSE SPANKING IS THE WORST YOU CAN DO. AND WAY TO GO, IF YOUR KID HITS SOMEONE, WHAT DO YOU DO? HIT YOUR KID. IM SURE THEY WILL GROW UP TO BE FINE CITIZENS.

I feel better. And my husband read that and said "i sure hope so and so and so and so do not find this, its obvious its about them." GOOD I HOPE YOU SEE IT AND WONDER IF BOBI IS REALLY (INSERT MY REAL NAME HERE)

Christina said...

YOUR BABY IS REALLY NOT THAT CUTE.

Just sayin.

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