I think I am coming down with New Age Syndrome. I have been meditating pretty regularly now.
I have been sending bad thoughts about my ovaries down golden cords into the earth while sucking in good thoughts from the divine.
I have been breathing pink sparkly light into my heart space and using it to scrub away the dark patches of emotions about my fertility.
At a somewhat heated business meeting yesterday I told someone that they needed to take some deep meditative breaths. (Yes, yes, I really did this. The words just came out.)
And something strange is happening to me.
I feel better.
I feel more calm.
I feel more (dare I say it) centered.
So I'm cranking things up a notch and I purchased a new meditation CD specifically geared toward IVF.
Here are the tracks:
Track 1: Hitting Your Mark! From shots to retrieval
Track 2: Rest and Rejuvenate - between retrieval and transfer
Track 3: Baby's Sweet Spot! From Transfer to Implantation (week 1 of 2 week wait)
Track 4: The Waiting Game! From Implantation to Pregnancy Test (week 2 of 2 week wait)
I just can't wait to get started. I refuse to listen to any track until I am actually at that part of my cycle. I mean...this stuff is so powerful that they caution you on the CD jacket not to listen to the CD while you are driving!
I hope that the changes I recognize in my emotional well being are being mirrored in my body, specifically my ovaries. But if not, I'll be satisfied if meditation can just keep me sane this cycle.