The new year starts tomorrow. My present state of mind is that I will have either be pregnant or have a child by the time 2009 ends. I know it's dangerous to think that way. I still haven't learned not to get my hopes up. I felt the same way a year ago about 2008 and it didn't happen. I could very well be in the same childless situation a year from now (except more battered, cynical, and wise.)
I can't help it though. I still have hope. I still have certainty that this baby thing will happen for me. I try not to admit it to myself, and I certainly don't say it out loud, but the hope and certainty are still there.