Saturday, January 1, 2011

Goodbye Hello

So I'm a little late for the end of the year wrap up, but if you'll indulge me I'll post a bit of a goodbye to 2010 before I say hello to 2011.

Mostly when I think of this past year I can't believe it all happened.  All the doctor's appointments, shots, acupuncture appointments, and trips to the pharmacy have become foreign to me again.  I find myself thinking about the "treatment time" in my life with a sense of wonder.  Did that just happen?  Did I really do all that?  Was that really my life? 

It's funny what some time and distance will do for the mind.  However, while I can say that time has healed some of my wounds from treatments; it has not healed my longing for a child. 

video

So I would like this video to represent closure, but obviously I still can't stop leaving that question mark at the end. 

That's the good bye to 2010.  Now on to the hello.

I have caught resolution fever pretty bad this year.  I am usually not one for resolutions, but I feel like I let this past year happen to me.  I didn't feel like an active participant in my life.  So I am resolving to do more living and get more done.

That means a lot of things; getting healthier, being more engaged at work, getting my house organized, and spending more time on creative endeavors.  There has to be more to life than working and watching TV. 

I kept an art journal in 2009 documenting my infertility treatments.  I kept no journal in 2010.  This year I intend to keep a "goal journal" to hold myself accountable to my goals and document my progress.  It will probably be a bit artsy again.


In other news, I'm happy to announce that we have added another member to our family.  A rescued golden retriever puppy who came to us just before Christmas.  We named him Lou.  After a few days of being bitter, Bo has turned into a great big brother.


I wish everyone a happy new year.  I hope to be posting more as I think I am going to have a lot more to say...

24 comments:

womb for improvement said...

It'll be good to have you back. And what a gorgeous dog.

Happy 2011.

MelissaP05 said...

Glad to hear from you again. Wishing you a wonderful 2011. What a beautiful little pup. So happy for tour new addition.

areyoukiddingme said...

Sigh...I hate that video. :(

Here's to running your own life from now on, and welcome to Lou. He's pretty cute too.

Happy New Year!

Kathleen said...

Happy new year. GOod to see you on here. And LOVE LOU! He's adorable. Hoping 2011 is the kind of year you are looking for.

Silver said...

Happy New Year! That puppy is just gorgeous - how on earth could anyone let him go?!

Andie said...

It's great to see you back. I think the journal is a wonderful idea. And oh, what a cute puppy! It made me laugh about Bo being bitter at first. :)

Wishing you all the best for 2011.

AmyG said...

Puppy! What a nice way to start 2011! All my best wishes for the new year.

Alena said...

Good to see you back and writing! I hope we see more of you in 2011 *hugs* The journal sounds like a great idea! I'm planning to do the same thing this year, so we can keep up with each other, yes? ;) Take care, dear <3

Baby Smiling In Back Seat said...

Lou could not be cuter.

Happy New Year! Best of luck with all of your goals.

loribeth said...

Oh my gosh, he is so cute!! Looking forward to hearing more from you this year. : )

strongblonde said...

i love the idea of being an active participant. cutest.dog.ever.

xx

Mad Hatter said...

Ohmygoodness love love love both Bo and Lou - they are sooooo adorable! We have a 2 year old lab and I so want another...maybe next Christmas if this year is another disaster for me...So nice to hear from you, Megan - I've missed you. Happy new year to you - it sounds like you have some wonderful things planned.
Love,
Maddy

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Karen Siddiqi said...

Super cute new puppy!! I think the goal journal is a fabulous idea...one I think I'll copy for myself through my blog.

the misfit said...

My heart hurts watching that video. It reminds me that their are no promises for any of us...the stories that never stop being told are of the people who went to heroic (maybe crazy) lengths and HAD A BABY ZOMG!!1! But then there are the many (as many?) untold stories of those who did as much or more and got only exhaustion and sadness. OK, now I realize I'm being a downer, but I think the truth is important...thank you for sharing that.

Also, that may be the cutest puppy I have ever seen.

lastchanceivf said...

That video just brought it all back--some times I still can't believe I went through five IVFs myself. Shudder.

Hoping all your dreams come true in 2011!

Infertile Farmer said...

The video - unbelievable. So painful and raw, and unfortunately, so real. 4 retrievals and another 3 FET's myself, it's just unbelievable what we are asked to endure. LOVE the new puppy!!! Such a cutie! Can't wait to hear more from you in 2011! You always seem to hit homeruns with your posts!! And Cheers to you for taking back your life!!

nurslouisa said...

Hello Megan, So good to hear from you, the video is really good and difficult--tough to see your story so far laid out in black and white. I hope this year is a better one for you and your new puppy is very wonderful.

Suzanne said...

It's good to hear from you! Lou is so adorable :)

coll said...

Your video brought me to tears! I agree with you.. First I thought sex was the answer.. Then I thought kits and timed sex was the answer... Then I thought IUI was the answer. Then.. IVF was the answer...Then IVF was the answer. Finally, IVF part 3 was the answer....Here I am with no true answers and all I am doing is asking questions....donor eggs will that be the answer..adoption will that be the answer....40,00dollars later I do not even have any more room to find the answer!ughh

Annah said...

What a beautiful doggie :) came over here from the SITS website. You have a bloggie admirer. Hehe

Maggi said...

I've got resolution fever too for some reason, 2011 looks like to be a productive year! Good luck with your and congrats on adding Lou to the family!

Jess said...

Hey! I just swept by your blog. Found it through a mutual friend's. Wishing the best for you and looking forward to following your journey.

~Jess
http://bringingyoumorethanasong.blogspot.com/

Miss Mac said...

Good 2011 goals and love the new addition... love Goldens (but not the puppy stage so much). :]

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