So I'm a little late for the end of the year wrap up, but if you'll indulge me I'll post a bit of a goodbye to 2010 before I say hello to 2011.
Mostly when I think of this past year I can't believe it all happened. All the doctor's appointments, shots, acupuncture appointments, and trips to the pharmacy have become foreign to me again. I find myself thinking about the "treatment time" in my life with a sense of wonder. Did that just happen? Did I really do all that? Was that really my life?
It's funny what some time and distance will do for the mind. However, while I can say that time has healed some of my wounds from treatments; it has not healed my longing for a child.
So I would like this video to represent closure, but obviously I still can't stop leaving that question mark at the end.
That's the good bye to 2010. Now on to the hello.
I have caught resolution fever pretty bad this year. I am usually not one for resolutions, but I feel like I let this past year happen to me. I didn't feel like an active participant in my life. So I am resolving to do more living and get more done.
That means a lot of things; getting healthier, being more engaged at work, getting my house organized, and spending more time on creative endeavors. There has to be more to life than working and watching TV.
I kept an art journal in 2009 documenting my infertility treatments. I kept no journal in 2010. This year I intend to keep a "goal journal" to hold myself accountable to my goals and document my progress. It will probably be a bit artsy again.
In other news, I'm happy to announce that we have added another member to our family. A rescued golden retriever puppy who came to us just before Christmas. We named him Lou. After a few days of being bitter, Bo has turned into a great big brother.
I wish everyone a happy new year. I hope to be posting more as I think I am going to have a lot more to say...