Cheers that we had three people come and look at our house this weekend. I go back and forth between wanting to start packing things up to ready for a move and holding off in case we can't get our house sold. We are aggressively priced, but you just never know what will (or won't) happen in this market.
Cheers that Tony took the baby bassinet purchased three years ago when we were pregnant for eight weeks to Goodwill this weekend. It really didn't bother me much. There are other baby things I have purchased that are much more sentimental to me and would be harder to let go. I'm glad it is going to a place where someone can use it. Had it been up to me I would have chopped it up with an axe and burnt it in the backyard.
Jeers that I didn't get off the sofa much this weekend despite my best laid plans. I did however get a burst of energy Sunday evening. I scrubbed the corners of the wood floors on my hands and knees, shined up the kitchen cabinets, and made lunch salads for the week. I hope this is a sign of more energetic pursuits to come.
Cheers on all the wonderful comments I have been getting on my blog and in emails. This has been a hard time for me as I feel a bit as though I have let people down. I know it is hard for those still in the fight to read about my story. I am the nightmare. I am the one with infertility that could not be treated. Thanks for sticking with me. I also feel like I have tapped into a whole other world of folks who are in the exact same spot as me.
Jeers that the Olympics are over. There is nothing better to do when you are depressed than watch a long curling match. I don't understand it at all, but I find it mesmerizing and the northern accents of the commentators are quite soothing.
That's it. More cheers than jeers. I guess that's a good sign.
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I'm very proud of you!
Seriously--you have pulled yourself up and have made a plan...and are just an inspiration!
Hugs to you!
I'm so with you on the Olympics - what a welcome distraction from all of the real-life drama we are all going through. There is a DVD for sale of the whole thing - I am definitely tempted.
It sounds like you are taking small steps and this is great to see. Keep being gentle with yourself - you deserve much kindness.
Love,
Maddy
Mindless TV suggestions now that the Olympics are over:
-Masterminds (about cunning criminals; I think it's on TruTV)
-Intervention (I can't not watch)
-Grey's (because it's on a million times a day on Lifetime)
-The Office (because it's on a million times a day on several channels including TBS)
Sending more hugs.
Oh and may I suggest Project Runway.
I am addicted to Project Runway. It is my one can't miss show. Intervention and The Office are on my list too! Thanks guys.
Around these parts, we've been watching a lot of Swamp Loggers, Ax Men, and Pawn Stars. I don't know why.
Best of luck with a sale and fresh start.
And another vote for Project Runway. (Although I think we are a few seasons behind you).
Oh man, reading those words about being the nightmare, the one who's infertility can't be treated...I so get that. I think most people give up after 2-3 failures because IVF is just so emotionally trying, not to mention expensive and physically exhausting. I remember debating doing number five and thinking: surely, surely with FIVE we will HAVE to succeed. And then we didn't.
I'm glad you're having some cheers. Here's to many more to come.
(((HUGS))) Glad there are more cheers than jeers but wish there were even more cheers. Thinking of you. I hear ya about the Olympics. :(
I like your idea of choping up the bassinet and lighting it on fire in the back yard, but I guess taking it to the Salvation Army is OK too. Good for you for getting off the couch, you are not a quiter and I am so happy I found your blogg, you are right there are a lot of folks out there who are right there with you.
Getting a house ready to sell should provide you with lots of distraction this next little while. Hope you can find some fun distractions too! Chopping stuff with an axe sounds tempting...
Hoping your house sells fast. I would suggest the bachelor for mindless entertainment, but it just ended. I've got nothing else.
i miss the olympics, too. we live where we usually get a canadian channel in addition to our american lineup. we always like to watch "northern" sports like curling on there....but they didn't have olympic coverage this year. :( boo. i don't think nbc showed enough of it!
i think it's great that you have more cheers than jeers. and, for the record, i think that laying on the couch can count as a cheer also! :)
xoxo
Hi! I just found you, but I love you already. I'm still in the IF war, but getting to the end of my battle, I guess. I'm another one who won't end up pregnant, but I gotta try to the IVF thing at least once (that's all I think I can afford, my insurance covers NOTHING). This way I can always remind myself that it wasn't for lack of trying.
Are you on netflix? I LOVE "true blood". I watched all of season one over one weekend. It was a delightful indulgence on the couch feeling sorry for myself, loving that the main character can't have babies with the love of her life either b/c he's a vampire... there are bigger problems out there... :)
The books are even better actually. I love the author Charlaine Harris. So, if you need good bed time reading to distract you from the IF nightmare, I highly recommend Sookie Stackhouse.
I have to admit your plan is the same as mine if this baby thing does not work out...except at 35 it will be the end of the road. The bright spot is you are still young,according to me, and can wait a year. It is important to take the break and just live. Next year, you will have a clear head and be ready to tackle this issue again, if you feel like it..Good luck and take a deep breath..
Praying for you sweet friend! Infertility is such a hard journey!
Love, Hugs and Prayers
Tiffany
www.thepiferfamily.blogspot.com
I'm just catching up on your last few posts today. I'm so sorry the last cycle didn't work. You deserve better. And, I really relate to all your feelings. I am not far from "giving up" on a baby with our own DNA. It's such a hard choice to make. But, you sound like you have a plan in mind and a really good attitude Of course, take all the time you need to grieve and rage at the world.
It's 2pm on Saturday and all I've done is sit around in my PJ's and watch TV. I recommend Modern Family for some humor.
Wishing you more cheers!
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